Easy

I was too easy then

I didn’t make you work to have 

yourself inside my flesh

I wish

I would have waited

made you take me on a date

instead of letting you

get wet and taste 

my sin inside your bed

This is my fate

no dress for me

this lust is free

and with this cock ring 

I thee wed 

This Christian widow

you can bone

and hear me moan

with no commitment

to the child I left at home

His father died

but why should I 

demand that you 

should take his place?

And so

these tears upon my face

aren’t wiped 

They fall upon your balls

while I am choking

on my dignity 

A desperate, sad 

attempt at “love”

that leaves me 

still alone